It is the feast of the Guardian Angels today… And I was thinking about that while I sat in the Public Gardens this morning. I have a hard time with conventional representations of angels…wings, saccharine, pink and cherubic…. But, LIGHT…yes. Warmth. Depth. Presence. Balm, Strength, Steadiness, Accompaniament. Even Guardian, protector…
And as I closed my eyes and opened my arms alone on the bench and steeped my being in this Glory, I thought of Job… Job who proclaimed that in spite of what surrounded him, in spite of his doubts and questions and insecurities…I know that my Redeemer lives , and that he will at last stand forth upon the dust; Whom I myself shall see: my own eyes, not another’s, shall behold him, and from my flesh, I shall see God; my inmost being is consumed with longing.
And I thought… Oh, Job…I get that. Those moments when I have had to dig down and stand up and say I Will Walk Through This. Bring it on…because why? Because I know my Redeemer lives and my own eyes will see…Because Light walks with me to remind me and I am not alone.
2 October, 2014
On the same bench in the Gardens. This could well be a part of my vision of heaven. The light alone–the way it moves through the trees, soaking and saturating them like morning dew and the way it slip-tugs around each branch like a ribbon wending its way. The light that knows both tag and peek-a-boo as well as her asanas of grace, blessing, and harmony. The way this light makes each color its own fullness. It is ALL within the gold of the black-eyed susan stand and every ray finds home in the deep fuchsia that softens the lamp post’s angularity. The way it smooths the surface of the water and the sky so that the geese and the sparrows, the woodpeckers and gulls, all have a clear path before them. Even the clouds look shaken out and snapped awake by the strength and depth of this radiance after a night shot through with the half-light threads of dreams.